'fat' 4ever ???

Okay- I went for my one month follow up and I am down 13 pounds according to them (I was 18 before AF arrived).  Dr walks in tells me how wonderful I look and then tells me my current BMI means I would no longer qualify for any type of WLS because its in the low 30's...then tells me he doesn't know what amount of weight I will drop (looking back a few hours perhaps he simply means compaired to first timers- cause he did say what they expect for people just having it done)...and all I can think he is just told me I'll be fat forever.  He says I am a success story and we have solved the pain issue and the weight gain issue.  Okay- I am now in panic mode that I will be here forever.  Not happy where I am. .He counseled me to continue to measure my food and acknowledge I was in the place I was not because I abused my RNY but because of un-preventable reasons but that he doesn't want me to go back to large meal sizes and to remember it's like being a newbie again.  Yeah- I have eaten regular food for the first time in the last several days.  I remember every real food I eat and I get that oh soo full feeling.  Yes- I have even 'had an episode of the foamies to my belt this time.  But my mind keeps hearing you look good, your successful now, and to be happy with my current fat because it may not change.  SCARED!!!!!  I know I should probably be joyed that I am 70 pounds from where I started 5 years ago...but I want to be where I was or lower before my babies.  Selfish and perhaps unrealistic I guess- I don't know what to think---he told me before I'd be where I was or lower.  Perhaps today he didn't recall all the work and fixing he did in there.  UGH! Vent over.  Thanks for letting me sound off. 

Jenn I'm so glad you called this post a rant.......you have to remind yourself that you are only a month out.  13 lbs is a hell of a lot of weight!  I don't know your story and how you came to needing a revision but I do know this......that was then and this is now.  Not many people who have had WLS have a second chance to fix what is broken.  You MUST embrace this journey with all you have.  Your surgeon sounds like he is the type to lay out that silver lining for his patients so they can see that there is success in all sizes along this journey.  There are all kinds of NSV's for everyone of us.  Don't let his comments bring you down they were meant to lift you up!  My only recommendation is that you keep a journal of those moments so you can see them pile on as the months go by.  Keep a chart of your WL and measurements so you can SEE the changes over time because you know that we tend to forget what we have accomplished and only see what we are failing at.....it's why many of us happened upon this journey in the first place.  It's almost like it is engrained in us to only see what we do wrong and not what we do right.  It's easier to lose ourselves in the past than it is to recognize our potential.......I hope the rest of your day is better!

Thanks!  I intend on going forth with more determination...in fact going to start my new Zumba routine today.  I got cleared for exercise beyond walking.  I had a 'revision' because I had a fistula (old stomach, new stomach and a blind pouch / limb) all connected into one giant stomach with weight gain and diabetes creeping back.  They believe it may have happened with having two pregnancies after RNY.  Thanks for the support. 

Well there you go Jenn!!!  Your needing a revision had NOTHING to do with YOUR choices and inability to keep yourself on track!  It's unfortunate that you developed the fistula BUT that "giant stomach" may have been what made it possible for you to carry your precious children!  You will rock your "new" tool and become the women you envision!  I'm so excited for you and can't wait to read about all your accomplishments in the coming months!

You'll do great.  13 lbs is good for the first month - and you know what you need to do to keep on losing. 

Show them they're wrong!  We've had someone else on the board who had a revision and was basically told the same thing and she's been very successful.

Now remember - everyone loses at different rates - so if you lose a little slower than others you see, don't get discouraged - it will happen!

Congratulations on embracing your second chance !!

Congratulations on your 13 pounds.  That's awesome for one month!!

I'm sure if you log your food and exercise you can get to the goal that you want.  Hang in there and do what you know works for you.

Linda

Well, you just need to give the doctor an example so he knows what kind of great results he can tell folks they too can get.

Foamies?! Is that where your mouth kinda waters and waters and waters?  I had that one night after I ate one mouthful too much of beans. YUK! 

Sounds like you are a new post-op person and have the ability all of us do to use it to our best advantage.  So go girl go   and show that Dr what you can do.

My surgeon told me before my revision that I may not lose any weight. He told me that twice. I never asked him why but I think it was either because I had failed so miserably with my first WLS or because he thought my metabolism was shot. At that point I didn't even care. I had the revision to solve health issues. I agreed to have my stomach revised into a pouch because I was afraid of gaining even more weight then I already had.
Today, 8 1/2 months later I can say that the revision did what I had hoped for. My health issues are pretty much resolved. And I have managed to lose the excess weight. That was a bonus but I'll take it
The revision solved my hunger problem. Since my surgery I have not felt that uncontrolable hunger that makes it hard to stick with a healthy food plan. I also have learned from my (many) mistakes. I cut out all refined carbs. I don't snack or graze. I am faithful with my vitamins. I feel like I have been given a second chance at WLS and I don't want to blow it like I did the first one.
You are in control of your weight loss. You drive the bus by making healthy choices. You may not lose as fast as you'd like but you will lose and you will lose as long as you eat fewer calories then you burn. Nothing the doctor says can change that.
I sure didn't mind going back to my surgeon and show him that he was wrong.

thanks everyone...I guess I was just in shock.  I mean I plan on working my tool for my lifetime.  I felt almost like he didn't have faith in me- or he knew something I didn't.  I wont lie some days are much harder then others. My energy is still in the crapper..but I am making changes, and trying to be good.  I think in looking back it was harder this time, because I was so off track and I had no time to prepare mentally for being that healthy me again (since my surgery was done as an emergency).  The first time I was waiting and waiting, anticipating, and I was so sick after it made me less attracted to food. Anyhow I am thrilled to have people to bounce my thoughts / concerns / vents / whines to b/c DH does not always get it.